I became a mom in 2012 when I gave birth to my first son Aiden.
I grew up with in a house full of nurses. My dad was an operating room nurse, and my mom was a labor and delivery nurse. With parents in health field – and a mom specializing in labor and delivery, I figured I would have it pretty easy when it came time to have a baby.
I distinctly remember finding out I was pregnant and a rush of fear came to me. At the time, I lived in El Paso, 1,500 miles away from my parents in Atlanta. All my comfort in knowing my mom would be around to help me figure out pregnancy and labor and being a first time mom was gone. I downloaded the Baby Center App and read everything I could about being pregnant. I would ask myself so many questions like:
- Can I eat salmon while pregnant?
- What happens if I miss a prenatal vitamin?
- Can I continue to exercise?
- Is it okay to fly?
I also had a bunch of thoughts of what it would be like after pregnancy. Just a few here:
- I’m so uncomfortable with this big belly. I bet that after birth,
I’ll be back to normal right away.
- I can’t wait to sleep on my stomach!
- My baby will be the easiest baby ever. He is so calm in my belly so he has to be like that when he is out.
When it came down to it, I thought that once I delivered Aiden, it would be so much easier – shake my head at my first time mom thoughts. Here’s what really happened:
- What, I have to breast feed, and I’ve gained 70 lbs. My body is still not mine.
- Sleep? What is sleep? This child wakes up ever 2 hours.
- Get off my boob, stop crying, go to sleep.
To all my mommies out there, this is real life.